It’s just that I need control in the most unhealthy kind of dominant way. If a man behaved like this, would it be acceptable? Probably. Does it mean that it’s okay? No. I analyze and I work everything until exhaustion and perfection, and it’s all so unnecessary. I turn into the most ugly, competitive being that disgusts me if I take even a half-step back for perspective.
Breathe in. Breathe out. Everything will be okay if I learn my place as a team member. Leadership is stressful and overrated if you have someone who cares for you that’s willing to carry more than half the weight.
Why am I so hard to deal with.
I’m seriously going to get broken up with if I can’t be part of a team in group projects, any class setting, and most importantly my relationship…
I suck aw0t8ehuoif0hawrilosf